recovering

Phew, what a week we had! Did you have fun? I sure did! Thank you again to Mimi for organizing the Knitting and Crochet Blog Week. I think it exceeded all our expectations. There are so many posts that you could go on for weeks and weeks reading them!

For myself, I have to admit I was doing my best to hide what was going on behind the scenes here. In truth, the last seven days have been the most intense and stressful period since I’ve started grad school. It started off with a 3000-word essay which was due on Friday. On Monday, I was still without an idea of what I wanted to say. On Wednesday, I had a gigantic mess of quotes and thoughts, but still nothing resembling an essay by far. On Friday morning, I was still writing my conclusion. Friends were complaining of not seeing me. My computer seemed to be begging for a break. The damned thing was handed in on Friday at 1, then I had a few hours of just wandering around aimlessly (and, for part of the time, stroking yarn), and at 6 that same day, I got the questions for my 3-day-long take-home exam, which entailed writing 2 essays of 2000 words each. To be handed in on Monday at 6. A minute late, and it would count as not showing up for the exam. Friday, I looked at the questions, went through my notes, stayed up until 1 jotting things down. On Saturday, I wrote and wrote and wrote. At 9 pm I had an emotional crisis from all the stress and went to bed. On Sunday, I was disintegrating. By 6pm, my second essay still hadn’t been started. At 1 am, I went out for a walk to get some fresh air, then continued. On Monday at 5:15 pm, having convinced myself that they were both of good enough quality for a pass, I clicked submit and tried to exhale, for the first time in 7 days.

Caroline and I celebrate our freedom with cupcakes. She went through the exam ordeal as well.

But I made sure the posts rolled on. I didn’t write them in advance. But knowing that at least 45 minutes each day would be spent putting together something fun and interesting (as opposed to diatribes on public administration), and taking little breaks every here and there to read and answer your comments – that really kept me going! So, while you didn’t know it, you were energizing me with all your visits and comments. Thank you for that. To all my ‘old’ regular readers (so lovely to have people with me who have been around since the very beginning!), and to all the new friends we’ve acquired in the last week (Hi! I hope you stick around!) – a huge thank you.

I’m now in the recovery stage. It’s of course physical recovery, but mostly mental. My brain needs to unwind. I think even the physical tiredness is coming primarily from mental exhaustion. I’m still feeling pretty drained and that’s why I didn’t post yesterday. Also, since my knitting has suffered badly in these times of stress (i.e. it hasn’t happened at all, even when I tried to knit I would end up being indecisive on what project to begin, unhappy with my cast on, annoyed with the yarn… all psychological, I tell you!), I don’t have much to show you in terms of new original work. But there’s loads of things to write about (as so many people proved this past week!), and I intend to get my knitting back on track very soon! So stay tuned…

A wonderful little statue I snapped today. I find it incredibly soothing and calming.

Hugs all round!

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About fridica

I started knitting completely by accident, when I was visiting my parents for a holiday in 2008. On a boring Sunday afternoon, I decided to dig through their stash of books to see if there was anything interesting to take back to my apartment. A knitting manual happened to be one of the books I found. I got curious, my mom immediately dug out her old needles and yarn stash (which she hadn’t used in a decade at least), and in a few minutes we were both casting on - she by memory, I by following the instructions from the book… :) Since I normally prefer learning from books, this was ideal.. I took the book home with me, and very very soon - I was an addict.

13 thoughts on “recovering

  1. Goodness – that sounds truly harrowing! Congratulations on living through it – and now you’re on the other side. I hope your knitting gets going again soon!

  2. Wow! Sounds insane! You really put together some wonderful posts this past week and I enjoyed reading them. I’m amazed you found the time!

    You definitely deserve some unwind time!

  3. Crazy days. Good on you for blogging all the way through it – and glad you got the essays in in the end! I remember the days of spending hours and hours and hours on an essay and *just* getting it submitted in time. And for all the stress and desperation and fear that you wouldn’t make it in time, I miss that! The studying I do now is completely different. Hope you’re having a nice leisurely recovery time now, am sure the knitting will recover as your brain does :)

  4. Well done then because you never even give a hint of those crazy days you were going through. Thanks for your posts and “bon courage”.

  5. And a big hug right back. You poor thing, that sounds absolutely horrendous! Well done on getting through it and even submitting the essays on time.
    I hope that when you knit now you’ll find it relaxing and soothing. This kind of exhaustion can last a little while. I can’t believe you’ve been blogging daily!

  6. Well done for getting through what sounds like a massive ordeal (and for managing to make such lovely blog posts through it all). Hope you’ve got some time now to take it easy and recover. Be kind to yourself :D

  7. That sounds awful! Hope you can have some rest now. Cake is definitely the way forward when recovering from stress.

  8. Wow! I was getting tired last week and I had a small small small fraction of the stuff you had to do! how on earth did you cope? What course are you doing? That at home exam does not sound good.

  9. Thank you everyone for your kind words! You’ll be happy to know I treated myself quite kindly for the rest of the week (even too kindly, considering I have four more exams waiting for me in the next month!), and am feeling much better now!
    For those interested, I’m doing a Masters in Public Policy and Administration, also taking some courses on humanitarian work and development.

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