I’ve gotten to the stage where I feel a bit overwhelmed with all the half-finished projects I have lying around and need to sort them out. It’s nothing unusual, an already familiar sensation that I welcome every once in a while, because I know it gives me the impetus to tie up loose ends (no pun intended) and go on. It means not only finishing up the projects I have on the go before starting any new ones, but more importantly, dealing with those things that I have pushed away into some dark corner because I was stuck with them and didn’t know in which direction to go. Sometimes that means finding a creative solution, or even just getting on with it, and sometimes it means ripping.
On this particular project I’ve been debating ripping with myself for a while. I finished Jane in about three weeks’ time, but I was not happy with it. The main problem was the fact that I was working with tiny scraps of yarn, and this got worse towards the end of the hat, where I had to join a new thread on every round, and to skip the last round of decreases (which then resulted in a very big hard hole at the top of the hat – because I had to thread through about 20 stitches, rather than 10). It turned out much more snug than I like my hats, with a million ends to weave in (and hope the whole top of the hat doesn’t come apart), and this big hole on top. Still, overall it looked nice and I wondered if I should just weave in the ends, block it and gift it to someone with a small head who liked snug hats. Indecision ensued. Most of my friends know, to what I can only imagine is great frustration which is endured quite stoically (thank you), that if I am the master of anything, it is indecision.
But today, finally, the decision was made. I need to do this properly. So I ripped. Once the psychological part was out of the way, I thought ripping would be easy, but it actually proved quite a challenge. As I said, I had been working with scraps of yarn and I had come up with various creative ways to put this hat together. Of course, when I’m knitting, I don’t expect to rip back, so I don’t think about doing things in a way that would make it easy to rip. Hm. Well, I got there in the end, and now I’m ready to start over.